million dollar baby and a proposal

so mca went back to school today. one of his awesome co-workers made a comment about how she has to pay more taxes now because we just had a million dollar baby. sensitive much? ugh.

today was my first day all alone. that was a little hard. i must sound like such an emotional wreck. but mca has been my rock through this whole thing and it was hard to have him gone.

i did spend some time at the hospital - thanks ali for the ride. anthon continues to do well. he had his brain scan today and all looks good. there was a small spot of blood, but they didn't grade it - so no brain bleeds for now. this is just the preliminary test, when he is 30 days old he will have another one. they are a little concerned because anthon drops his heart rate at random times (i can't think of what the medical term is) and then brings it back up himself. However, he is still on 21% oxygen - which is great and a CPAP of 4 - which is also great. so this doesn't seem to be the heart issue. consequently, to start ruling things out, they did an echo and an ekg. without the cardiologist report, both tests looked ok. more info on those later. they say that some babies just drop their heart rate and they can't figure out why - but that they grow out of it and things go fine. he wasn't very happy today with all the testing going on. but it was so great because i was able to contain him (pressing with a firm hand on the body, arms, or legs to help calm baby down) for a while today. that was the first real motherly thing i have been able to do - except for the 3 hour pump sessions. anthon is also up to eating 9 MLS of breast milk every three hours. pray for weight gain. he is tolerating the milk pretty well. yay.

anthon's nurse today was emily. she also had him yesterday and i got a great vibe from her over the phone and meeting with her in person. she is spunky with short hair and some super sweet zebra print hospital shoes. without even asking anything about her (credentials, marriage info, child info, blood sample, ect) i just like blurted out "do you want to be our primary?" and she accepted my proposal. i just had a great feeling about her. perhaps it is the name (emily nice?) i was really giddy walking out of the NICU today. we have a primary!!!

hen visited anthon today. he did a great job. didn't seem too scared or uncomfortable. he did want to look at all the other babies though - anthon was definitely not exciting enough. at the end of the visit he said goodbye and said "love you". so sweet.

loves - the andersons