lately

so i have had a bit of a run in with ambien lately. which means i am not taking it anymore. oh but i wish i could. especially right now. at 1:35 AM. and i am thinking of my sweet mother. who ALWAYS gives me the best advice. (even though at the time of the advice giving i just want her to say - take the ambien, it will be fine). she said to me. you are going to sleep TERRIBLE for a few days. maybe even a week. and if anyone knows me, you know this just can't happen for so many reasons. she also says, have mca hide the ambien, because you will be tempted to take it. and right now at 1:38 she is so right. but i am holding strong. she also said, don't get on the computer or watch tv. and i am not listening to that right now. sorry mom. i couldn't resist. so what this lesson boils down to is two thing: 1- ambien is a fabulous fabulous thing, if you can just sleep and not have crazy things happen, which is not in my case, so i cannot partake of the fabulous fabulousness of it and 2- my mom is so smart. and gives the best advice. and i have been thinking about her the last two nights remembering her words of wisdom. even though i want to sleep. so bad. and to end, in the words of the funniest man alive, jim gaffigan, "i wonder what my bed is doing right now."